After Thought

i've decided that i need to figure out how to access a program at my school called NetOp Student. it's part of NetOp School, the program my school uses to "protect" the network. it has other uses, but of course the school district technicians don't tell teachers how to use the program. but anyway, NetOp Student can deny teacher access to my computer: in other words, they can't freeze my computer so they can deliever hour long speeches on things not relating to the subject at hand. gets annoying when all work time is locked up and filled with useless chatter. better get going. spanish homework calls.

Almost One Year

man, it's been almost a year since i started this blog. huh....and i thought it'd die out....guess i was wrong.

well ryan, if you ever get around to it...i could use that webspace. i think it's time i made the move from the blog to the website. yep, i think so.

nothing's new here. CISCO is exactly what i thought it'd be: lots of work. crazy stuff....but interesting all the same. not sure if i'd want to network computers for a living, however, it could make life easier for me to network my own computers, on my own.

in the process of looking for a job. my grades are doing pretty good, so i figure i can spare some time for a job. the extra cash would be nice. but i'm having problems finding one, due to the fact that i refuse to work fast food, walmart, or other crappy jobs of similar nature. *sighs* maybe i shouldn't be so picky. too bad i'm not 18, i wouldn't mind bartending. i suppose i should keep looking....

Old Skin

well, i decided that the brightness of the old skin hurt my eyes too much, so i changeed it. it'll only be for a while, until i find a better skin, or make one. you know aaron, if you could just throw me a couple of never-before-seen quake 4 screen shots......guess that'll never happen, huh? ;) anyway, read the 5 min essay, it's quite good.(located just below this post)

5 Min Essay

due to the high frequency of people who would like to read this, i have decided that they should be able to enjoy the fruits of my labor. so, without further ado, Peanuts: Oversalted and Undercooked

(A white, middle aged man sits in a bar. He is talking to nobody in particular. )
Jack: Now let’s see. I live in a world where Charles Schultz works his whole life with one thing in mind…to bring a smile to people’s face. Now what can be better than that? I can’t tell you how many times I’d look at Snoopy laying on his doghouse... not a care in the world… waiting for Charlie Brown to bring his supper…and think: “You know, no matter what, this makes me smile.” And it did, too. Something that was just plain good. And then what happens? After working so hard for so long, Mr. Schultz decides to retire and enjoy the fruits of his labor. Spend some time with his family. Play a little hockey with his buddies. For once he didn’t have to be worried about making people like me happy. He could work on himself.
And then somebody decides instead of enjoying his retirement, ’ole Charles should instead get really sick and die. Somebody made it happen. Shit like this doesn’t just happen for no reason. Somebody wills it.
So that’s the world I live in. Everybody else lives in the world where they say…”Oh he had a good life, and he made a ton of money when he put Snoopy on the blimp and he didn’t have to work at all if he didn’t want to and oh how lucky he was to do what he really wanted to do.” Bullshit like that. That’s the difference between me and the rest. They think its okay that Charles Schultz is dead, and they just go on and on. I think it sucks, and I’m pissed off about it.
Anyway, I got the Peanuts Christmas video and me and my daughter watch it everyday during Christmas season. The music! Ah, there is no better Christmas music than the piano tunes on that show. I defy you not to smile when Charlie Brown is trying to direct the local school play and the rest of the gang starts dancing wildly, with some of them making Travolta in “Saturday Night Fever” look like he has two left feet.
So Charlie Brown is pissed because he knows he’s supposed to be happy, with it being Christmas and all, but he just doesn’t feel any different. People still shit all over him, make fun of him…and he can’t for the life of him see why he should be singing friggin’ Christmas Carols and baking cookies like everybody else. So he confides in his one true friend, Linus. Now Linus is an enigma. It takes him a while to get really warmed up, and I suspect that he does all his “know it all” shit only when there are people around to tell him how smart he is. And his speeches never really sound off the cuff, you know? They sound rehearsed, like a politician. Or kinda like the high school valedictorian giving the address at graduation. All the parents in the crowd are oohing and ahhing thinking “why can’t my kid be that smart”, while all the kids in the class are thinking what a kiss ass the guy is and why he isn’t mentioning that he has the personality of a toilet seat. The guy never said anything memorable in four years and now he’s Richard Simmons telling us to “reach for the stars” or some shit like that? The football players are all regretting that they didn’t kick his ass when they had the chance.
When Charlie asks for help, all Linus can do initially is make snide comments like “…of all the Charlie Browns in the world, you’re the Charlie Browniest.” That’s what guys do to each other when one admits to a weakness. They can’t just start trying to help you right away, or else people will all think that you are gay or something. So they do the manly thing and make fun of you first.
But give Linus some time, and pretty soon he’s got a speech prepared, and he always delivers it flawlessly, like Bill Clinton. So one minute he’s making fun of Charlie, and the next he’s on a stage with a spotlight on him quoting scripture…arrogantly proclaiming afterwards to Charlie Brown…”That’s what Christmas is all about Charlie Brown.” Well, why couldn’t he have given his little spiel before? Why did he have to wait until he had an audience and a spotlight on him? He’s an exhibitionist, that’s why. And for me this more than anything else is what soured me on Linus. And I could tell my daughter felt the same way…cause every time he’d get to his speech she’d start getting bored and she’d ask me where Snoopy went.
But let’s face it. The blanket makes him likable. It’s his weapon against the world, and he can turn it into anything. He can mold it and shape it to become anything he wants. He dances with it. He can wear it, or use it as a lethal weapon. But I know what Schultz was up to. This was his take on our country’s growing fixation on drugs. Any kind of drugs. What happens when Linus loses his blanket? He goes through withdrawals. Physical withdrawal, just like a drug addict. He was a junkie, and the blanket made him strong. Take it away and he was a hollow shell. I mean, it’s hard to imagine Charlie Brown’s sister Sally, who was a little biscuit by the way, kinda reminded me of a young Cheryl Ladd from Charlie’s Angels….how she would fall all over him if he didn’t have the confidence that came with the blanket. So her fixation just fueled his desire…to be the all knowing seer…and someone always at the ready to solve any human crisis that might arise. And quite frankly, the blanket may have taken away his sex drive, ‘cause I could never understand why he never jumped at ‘ol Sally. You can bet Charlie Brown would’ve been in the sack with that little red head girl if she can on to him like Sally threw herself at Linus.
Charles Schultz dying. I'm telling you. That really sucks. I mean...what's next? Mr. Rogers gonna croak too?

Quiz.....

your a mermaid! your very calm and cheery, and like
to keep to yourself. you adore water, and are
probably a decent swimmer. you don't like to be
confused, either, and like being in control.


what would you be in a fantasy world? (amazing pics!)
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um....me, a mermaid? kinda insulted, but then again.....i do love the water......*sighs* such is life

If WWII Was Fought Online.....

If WWII Was Fought Online.....



*Hitler[AoE] has joined the game.*
*Eisenhower has joined the game.*
*paTTon has joined the game.*
*Churchill has joined the game.*
*benny-tow has joined the game.*
*T0J0 has joined the game.*
*Roosevelt has joined the game.*
*Stalin has joined the game.*
*deGaulle has joined the game.*
Roosevelt: hey sup
T0J0: y0
Stalin: hi
Churchill: hi
Hitler[AoE]: cool, i start with panzer tanks!
paTTon: lol more like panzy tanks
T0JO: lol
Roosevelt: o this fockin **bleep** i got a depression!
benny-tow: haha america **bleep**
Stalin: hey hitler you dont fight me i dont fight u, cool?
Hitler[AoE]; sure whatever
Stalin: cool
deGaulle: **** Hitler rushed some1 help
Hitler[AoE]: lol byebye frenchy
Roosevelt: i dont got crap to help, sry
Churchill: wtf the luftwaffle is attacking me
Roosevelt: get antiair guns
Churchill: i cant afford them
benny-tow: u n00bs know what team talk is?
paTTon: stfu
Roosevelt: o yah hit the navajo button guys
deGaulle: eisenhower ur worthless come help me quick
Eisenhower: i cant do **** til rosevelt gives me an army
paTTon: yah hurry the fock up
Churchill: d00d im gettin pounded
deGaulle: this is fockin weak u guys **bleep**
*deGaulle has left the game.*
Roosevelt: im gonna attack the axis k?
benny-tow: with what? ur wheelchair?
benny-tow: lol did u mess up ur legs AND ur head?
Hitler[AoE]: ROFLMAO
T0J0: lol o no america im comin 4 u
Roosevelt: wtf! thats bull**** u **bleep**s im gunna kick ur **bleep**
T0JO: not without ur harbors u wont! lol
Roosevelt: u little biotch ill get u
Hitler[AoE]: wtf
Hitler[AoE]: america hax, u had depression and now u got a huge fockin army
Hitler[AoE]: thats bull**** u hacker
Churchill: lol no more france for u hitler
Hitler[AoE]: tojo help me!
T0J0: wtf u want me to do, im on the other side of the world retard
Hitler[AoE]: fine ill clear you a path
Stalin: u arsshoel! WE HAD A FoCKIN TRUCE
Hitler[AoE]: i changed my mind lol
benny-tow: haha
benny-tow: hey ur losing ur guys in africa im gonna need help in italy soon sum1
T0J0: o **** i cant help u i got my hands full
Hitler[AoE]: im 2 busy 2 help
Roosevelt: yah thats right biznitch im comin for ya
Stalin: church help me
Churchill: like u helped me before? sure ill just sit here
Stalin: dont be an arss
Churchill: dont be a commie. oops too late
Eisenhower: LOL
benny-tow: hahahh oh **** help
Hitler: o man ur focked
paTTon: oh what now biotch
Roosevelt: whos the cripple now lol
*benny-tow has been eliminated.*
benny-tow: lame
Roosevelt: gj patton
paTTon: thnx
Hitler[AoE]: eisenhower hax hes killing all my ****
Hitler[AoE]: quit u hacker so u dont ruin my record
Eisenhower: **bleep**!
benny~tow: wtf that mean?
Eisenhower: meant to say nutsack lol finger slipped
paTTon: coming to get u hitler u paper hanging hun ****socker
Stalin: rofl
T0J0: HAHAHHAA
Hitler[AoE]: u guys are fockin gay
Hitler[AoE]: ur never getting in my city
*Hitler[AoE] has been eliminated.*
benny~tow: OMG u noob you killed yourself
Eisenhower: ROFLOLOLOL
Stalin: OMG LMAO!
Hitler[AoE]: i didnt click there omg this game blows
*Hitler[AoE] has left the game*
paTTon: hahahhah
T0J0: my teammates are n00bs
benny~tow: shut up noob
Roosevelt: haha wut a moron
paTTon: wtf am i gunna do now?
Eisenhower: yah me too
T0J0: why dont u attack me o thats right u dont got no ships lololol
Eisenhower: fock u
paTTon: lemme go thru ur base commie
Stalin: go to hell lol
paTTon: fock this **** im goin afk
Eisenhower: yah this is gay
*Roosevelt has left the game.*
Hitler[AoE]: wtf?
Eisenhower: **** now we need some1 to join
*tru_m4n has joined the game.*
tru_m4n: hi all
T0J0: hey
Stalin: sup
Churchill: hi
tru_m4n: OMG OMG OMG i got all his stuff!
tru_m4n: NUKES! HOLY **** I GOT NUKES
Stalin: d00d gimmie some plz
tru_m4n: no way i only got like a couple
Stalin: omg dont be gay gimmie nuculer secrets
T0J0: wtf is nukes?
T0J0: holy ****holy****hoylshti!!!111
*T0J0 has been eliminated.*
*The Allied team has won the game!*
Eisenhower: awesome!
Churchill: gg noobs no re
T0J0: thats bull**** u fockin **bleep**
*T0J0 has left the game.*
*Eisenhower has left the game.*
Stalin: next game im not going to be on ur team, u guys didnt help me for ****
Churchill: wutever, we didnt need ur help neway dumbarss
tru_m4n: l8r all
benny~tow: bye
Churchill: l8r
Stalin: fock u all
tru_m4n: shut up commie lol
*tru_m4n has left the game.*
benny~tow: lololol u commie
Churchill: ROFL
Churchill: bye commie
*Churchill has left the game.*
*benny~tow has left the game.*
Stalin: i hate u all **bleep**s
*Stalin has left the game.*
paTTon: lol no1 is left
paTTon: weeeee i got a jeep
*paTTon has been eliminated.*
paTTon: o ****!
*paTTon has left the game.*

iGod

frickin cool website.....GOD is kinda weird, but fun.

New Blog Skin

well, i decided that a new skin was in order due to the new school year. so, here it is. that's henrietta on the right. she's a character from gunslinger girl, one of my favorite animes.

anyway, thanks tom, for all the help on debugging my code. ^^

CSS

thanks ryan, CSS is much easier to understand than JavaScript. and i suppose pretty soon i'll need some webspace from you to make a website...hopefully soon.

Harry Potter Theory

well...it's more like multiple theories at the moment. i'm dog- and cat-sitting for some friends while they're getting married.(congrats seren and aaron!) anyway, i've had some time to reread The Half Blood Prince and i've come up with several different theories:

1.) sirius' brother, regalus, is the mentioned R.A.B. he died because he upset voldemort, and was killed. this was because he destroyed one of voldemort's Horcuxes.

2.) dumbledore is not dead. snape was indeed dumbledore's man to the end. he cast a nonverbal spell, but said the incantation for the killing curse. snape invented the nonverbal spell, as he invented many others. the spell merely imitates the killing curse, but in reality does nothing to seriously harm the would be victim.

3.) harry is related to godric gryfindor. one reason i think this is he was able to pull gryfindor's sword from the sorting hat in his 2nd year. another reason is where his parents lived and where they were killed: Godric's Hollow. rowling had to have tied that in, she's a goddess when it comes to making ties that are hard to see.

4.) the locket harry and dumbledore found in the sea cave is a false horicrux, as it says. regalus black, aka R.A.B., put the real horicrux in Number 4 Grimauld Place. it was the locket that could not be opened in Order of the Phoenix.

5.) harry is the 7th horicrux. in The Chamber of Secrets, dumbledore told harry that he could speak parseltounge because voldemort could, and voldemort transferred some of his powers to harry. this happened because part of his soul left him and went in harry. it is the bond that connects them.

UPDATE: after reading my writing, i started thinking, again. what if the potion in Half Blood Prince that harry made dumbledore drink was a potion that snape made? in Sorcerors' Stone, snape claimed he could "stopper death." what if that potion allowed the drinker to survive mortal wounds for a period of time, i.e. Avada Kadavra or falling off a tower. it would make sense, since snape is such a genius when it comes to potions.

6.) dumbledore really died. everyone leaned on dumbledore too heavily, and without him people will have to rise and meet the challenge. plus, if snape stayed on the Order's side, him killing dumbledore would make him closer to voldemort, thus leaving him open to an assassination attempt. plus, dumbledore might have been dying, albeit slowly. his hand was withered, and that could have been the only visible sign of a slow acting death curse.

7.) dumbledore's last words to snape were "Snape....Please...." this is not dumbledore, as dumbledore is usually very confident. there is something there that we aren't seeing.

8.) R.A.B. could be Borgin or Burke from Borgin and Burke's. they were voldemort's first employers, after all.

9.) the white flames at the end of Half Blood Prince, concealed dumbledore's body. this could mean he's alive, as harry thought he saw a phoenix fly from those flames. dumbledore could have been an unregistered animagus. faking his death was a way to lure voldemort into a false sense of hope.

10.) harry is going to have to die at the end of the 7th book. it'll be the only way to kill voldemort. harry'll loose all the titles he had been given, and he'll be known as harry potter, nothing more.

11.) harry is a horicrux. neville will be the one to dispose of voldemort. by ignoring him, voldemort wont' suspect neville. neville is also the only other one the prophecy could have meaning for, other than harry.

12.) the dumbledore that was killed was not dumbledore. it was someone who had been given polyjuice potion, and snape was tricked into killing him. the more of the potion harry made dumbledore drink in the sea cave the more dumbledore started acting different, like another person.

man, i'm getting tired of writing all these theories down. as soon as something pops in my head, i write it down. i'm stopping here, and feel free to call me a coddy old badger(bonus points for the one who knows who said this and what book)

Update....

well, i haven't posted in a while. that's because i've been working at camp decorah. got back 2 weeks ago, then went to chicago to visit sarah. chicago was fun, and i love shedd aquarium. all those fish.....the water....it's sooo cool. i wish my house would be like that....i'd never leave. anyway, i guess that's the update....so yeah. post more later.